Another Boot

So my last blog was about public transportation and control, which is taken away completely if I can't drive. I have gotten a lot better about being a passenger in a car, but I still prefer to be the driver. This has all been complicated by another boot.

In 2005, I was playing soccer drunk after a wedding with some friends and little kids and I broke my foot. I was on crutches and in a walking boot for months. It took so long for my foot to feel normal again.

Last week,  I was playing tennis with a friend when I went for game point and turned my foot and fell hard. My foot swelled instantly and it looked like I had a tennis ball stuck to my ankle. It was big and gross and painful. Diagnosis: I sprained my ankle and tore some ligaments and may have fractured something. I have to go back to the doctor two more times. It's painful and annoying but I know it could be a lot worse. I was on crutches for a few days; now my foot is strong enough to walk with just the boot.

I really wanted to be able to do lots of drives this summer and the foot/boot problem makes me more anxious about it. I'm not supposed to be driving in my boot but I have been. I know it's not the smartest/safest thing to do, but I need to get to work, etc. I have limited my driving to short distances and necessary trips.

This weekend I'm supposed to go to D.C. Pride (which I've never been to) and maybe hang out with a girl I'm interested in. There are anxiety triggers with this drive such as traffic in D.C. and the fact that it's going to be packed. I'm also not sure if it's smarter to drive there or take the metro, which obviously is not my preference. And then there's the obvious foot concern with driving and then possibly having to walk around a lot once I get there, which may be too much for my foot too soon. Is this an excuse or a valid concern? My anxiety clouds my mind so much that I'm not sure. To go or not to go? I just feel like: "I have to go see about a girl."